Last week, I was chosen as the Courageous Mom for the month of April by an organization dedicated to Pregnancy After Loss. I am not going to lie – this was a huge honor for me and I felt excited because this type of recognition allows more people to hear our story and find out about the work we are doing with Madison’s Closet.
And then I started to kinda freak out a bit – I mean you start an organization, people start saying she’s courageous and you all are going to start thinking I have got this all figured out or that I am doing “ok”. Or that now, I can only show the kinder, gentler, put-together Henderson to the world.
The truth is, some days I feel like I will crack under the weight of the grief.
And some days I do.
To me, courage does not mean the absence of fear or sorrow.
The truth is we are all courageous – I am. You are. My fellow sisters in loss are courageous. The woman who is battling infertility is courageous. The woman who has decided she does not want to have children is courageous. The woman who carries the child for another is courageous. The woman who gives her child to another to raise is courageous. The woman who is doing the best she can to be the best she can is courageous.
I will continue to courageously show you the highs and the lows in the hopes that none of us will ever confuse courage with perfection.
With light and love,